I never thought that I would ever be writing these words, “I’m pregnant.” Yep, Sean Bonner and I are going to have a baby. I wrote a post awhile ago explaining that I have advanced ovarian endometriosis in addition to hypothyroidism and I was told by two different doctors that specialize in fertility that I had about a 1% chance of conceiving naturally. I guess I should have gone for that third opinion because they were both wrong (note to self, contact them and let them know the good news).
As per my post I did make some health changes. I ate vegan for a little while, but found it too challenging, so I essentially am vegetarian but will indulge in seafood now and again. I stopped eating dairy for the most part and started drinking rice and almond milk instead. I upped my veggie and fruit consumption and of course don’t eat meat. I don’t know if it made any difference or if it was Sean’s Superman Sperm, but we bucked the odds. I still have endometriosis, but I am told that it might retreat during the course of my pregnancy.
Finding out I was pregnant was a MAJOR shock to both of us. I had been feeling really crummy and attributed it to my endometriosis and made an appointment to see the doctor. It was a couple of days before I went to see him that I took the pregnancy test and it was positive. I started laughing because it was just too unbelievable to me.
Sean and I talked about kids in the sense that one day if we both wanted them we would look at adoption, but it was a very infrequent conversation. Neither one of us goes gaga for kids and I don’t have a ticking clock going off. In fact, we had just started discussing a year long trip around the world. Getting pregnant was not something we planned or even thought we could plan. All I wanted from trying to beat my endo was to not be in so much pain and to take back the choice to have kids so that if I decided to, I could.
Despite our apprehension with the situation, we went to the OB-GYN and sure enough, there was the little blob with the flicking heartbeat. I’m put in the “high risk” category because I turn 35 in November but we just finished some screening tests and the doc said the baby looks healthy. I decided to let people know after this doctor visit because let me tell you, keeping this secret at work when you are sick and tired is the hardest thing I have ever done. I am so thankful to my boss whose wife is pregnant because I finally broke down and told him and he immediately started giving me info on doulas (I heart you Bob Moz!).
I am also very thankful to the people who have been supportive of me and it’s nice to know I have friends that are also pregnant or recently gave birth so I can inundate them with questions and be part of another club. Of course I am the most thankful to my dude Sean who is very supportive despite being incredibly freaked out. Didn’t we just get married? 🙂
So ya, I’m pregnant, and I’m super scared and nervous but I also have little moments of excitement. I mean, who wouldn’t want Sean Bonner to be the father to their kid? He’s badass, adventurous, loves cute things, has a bunch of rad toys, and is pretty dang smart. I know everyone thinks that their baby is a miracle, but I honestly really think that. The baby is due on Sean’s birthday in late February and in the Year of the Tiger which is the same as my Chinese Zodiac. I think that just puts a cherry on top.
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