I never thought that I would ever be writing these words, “I’m pregnant.” Yep, Sean Bonner and I are going to have a baby. I wrote a post awhile ago explaining that I have advanced ovarian endometriosis in addition to hypothyroidism and I was told by two different doctors that specialize in fertility that I had about a 1% chance of conceiving naturally. I guess I should have gone for that third opinion because they were both wrong (note to self, contact them and let them know the good news).
As per my post I did make some health changes. I ate vegan for a little while, but found it too challenging, so I essentially am vegetarian but will indulge in seafood now and again. I stopped eating dairy for the most part and started drinking rice and almond milk instead. I upped my veggie and fruit consumption and of course don’t eat meat. I don’t know if it made any difference or if it was Sean’s Superman Sperm, but we bucked the odds. I still have endometriosis, but I am told that it might retreat during the course of my pregnancy.
Finding out I was pregnant was a MAJOR shock to both of us. I had been feeling really crummy and attributed it to my endometriosis and made an appointment to see the doctor. It was a couple of days before I went to see him that I took the pregnancy test and it was positive. I started laughing because it was just too unbelievable to me.
Sean and I talked about kids in the sense that one day if we both wanted them we would look at adoption, but it was a very infrequent conversation. Neither one of us goes gaga for kids and I don’t have a ticking clock going off. In fact, we had just started discussing a year long trip around the world. Getting pregnant was not something we planned or even thought we could plan. All I wanted from trying to beat my endo was to not be in so much pain and to take back the choice to have kids so that if I decided to, I could.
Despite our apprehension with the situation, we went to the OB-GYN and sure enough, there was the little blob with the flicking heartbeat. I’m put in the “high risk” category because I turn 35 in November but we just finished some screening tests and the doc said the baby looks healthy. I decided to let people know after this doctor visit because let me tell you, keeping this secret at work when you are sick and tired is the hardest thing I have ever done. I am so thankful to my boss whose wife is pregnant because I finally broke down and told him and he immediately started giving me info on doulas (I heart you Bob Moz!).
I am also very thankful to the people who have been supportive of me and it’s nice to know I have friends that are also pregnant or recently gave birth so I can inundate them with questions and be part of another club. Of course I am the most thankful to my dude Sean who is very supportive despite being incredibly freaked out. Didn’t we just get married?
So ya, I’m pregnant, and I’m super scared and nervous but I also have little moments of excitement. I mean, who wouldn’t want Sean Bonner to be the father to their kid? He’s badass, adventurous, loves cute things, has a bunch of rad toys, and is pretty dang smart. I know everyone thinks that their baby is a miracle, but I honestly really think that. The baby is due on Sean’s birthday in late February and in the Year of the Tiger which is the same as my Chinese Zodiac. I think that just puts a cherry on top.
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